Not a single thing in nature blooms all year round, so don’t expect yourself to. This is something that has always been in my mind but I have often found it hard to accept.
I used to keep a monthly journal, where I would keep a record of my mood, sleep, socialised and exercise, I also used to set ten goals a month. Although this worked for a couple of weeks, maybe even a month, I noticed I started to get very wrapped up in the month aspect of it all. For instance if on the 3rd of June I had a bad day, then that was it the month was ruined, I didn’t try for the rest of the month because in my eyes it was already over. I decided to put a stop to this. I made a deal with myself that if I was so set on making a journal I would have to do it day by day, so every single day is a fresh start, every day I am trying to do better and be better than the last.
For a few weeks I’ve been in a rut, stuck on what to do. I’ve felt uninspired for a use of better words. Uninspired on my blog, uninspired in myself, uninspired in life. After weeks and weeks of just plodding along feeling like I was going in circles I decided a few days away was just what the doctor ordered. I have spent the past five days in wales, with no internet, no social media, no commitments; just good company and a lot of sea air. It’s done me the world a good. Having time to recharge and work out what I really want, what my goals are and how I am going to get there.
From my short break away I have come to realise a few things;
- Sometimes, you will never know why. All I can say is that it wasn’t your fault.
- You are not a problem that needs to be fixed. We are all human, not one of us is broken, some are simply more complex
- If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
- Always wear suncream, learnt this the hard way.
- Every month isn’t a new beginning, nor is every day. Every second you have the chance to be who you want to be, do what you want to do, achieve what you want to achieve, you’ve just got to believe in yourself, then you’re half way there.
A very important person in my life taught me to ‘rest not quit’, I think we all forget that from time to time. Sometimes we just need a few days to recharge and think about what we want from life. Take a day, take a week, however long you need and just unplug and recharge your batteries so to speak, you deserve a break.
I urge you go out and discover who you are and what you want out of this crazy beautiful thing we call life, create yourself.
Happy new life’s eve!